My Other "Sister"

 

This is my Other "Sister" Sarah!!! or Sarmi.....or Sarha.....lol

Don't we actually look like sisters?!  

(Today) 

This is the newest picture i have of one of my BFF Sarah and I! I haven't been able to go out and see her much lately between her working f/t and me well; being me, f/t SAHM.....

I absolutely LOVE my Sarah! She is the best everrrr. She is absolutely my Best Friend and Honestly she is a Sister to me....I mean for crying out loud she looks more like a sister to me than my REAL sister! LOL.....



We have been hanging out since she moved in across the street from me on Tronero Way back in '95, damn....it's been almost 15 years already?!...Crazay!!! We've had our spells where we've pissed eachother off; or lost touch, but we always end up reconciling :D!

Here's some Sarah Sarah With Lice and Te Tecia Mo Mecia whoop wop:

TOWELLL
Lotions
Prrrrka
Brrrrda
Nights
Myst/Riven/Exile
Choir
Altoids
You like it in the WAD?!
Hit Me Ticia ONE MORE TIME!
Tronero Way
Erics Red Hat
Singing
Geocities Websites

The list goes on and on.....lol.....but what else do you expect from 15 YEARS?!

I LOVE YOU SARMI!!!! (SARAH RICE-A-RONI)

I don't need....

......your snide remarks.
......your whispered spineless comments.
......your self absorbed self.
......to deal with your two sided ways.Basicaly,
......you.

Are you Fucking Kidding Me?!...........

So today i took the kids to King Skate for Laila's 8th birthday party. Anywho, Skylair has never been skating before, we were going to wait until he was 4 before we gave him quads to start out with because he's a little clumsy at times with say his bike and his scooter. Welp we had to try it out today, and he was doing pretty good, that is after i got the bearings fixed on his skate so that he wasn't going all crazy legs. Well Jamie took Isabella so that i could go around the rink with Sky, because HELLO there's no way i'd try and teach Sky to skate while holding Isabella and being on skates myself. Of course, Isabella cried; duh, she doesn't do well with people,period. Especially when she never sees the person holding her. And my SIL had to of course open her fucking mouth, AS ALWAYS; and talk shit. I am sooo fucking sick and tired of her!! "God, why is she out there skating with Sky, while Isabella is crying and ruining the fun?...." all behind my back by the way. So i said fairly loud to dustin, don't you just love how Steff is talking Shit?! And that's when she decided to get all cocky and finally say it to my face. She didn't apologize til Jamie talked to her. Honestly i think that was the only reason that she did. I told her afterwards not to worry about my SCREAMING CHILDREN ruining everything ever again; because we are not going to par take in any of their activities and bull shit. Maybe when i don't show up to the next festivity and her kids get upset about it she'll learn to keep her fucking mouth shut and quit being such a bitch. Jamie came and talked to me afterwards, and of course i was pissed off and needing to use my Inhaler......saying " oh you know her......don't take it to heart....blah blah blah", well i told him why should i act like the grown up when she's even OLDER than I AM!? I mean come the fuck on. I am sick and tired of her bull shit. You know what, fuck her and her weak ass apology. She tried to say that it didn't come out right and she didn't want me to take it the way that i took it. Well how the FUCK else am i supposed to take it?!........OMS i need a new family because mine fucking sucks.

Life Unexpected

Is by far one of the coolest new shows that the CW has come up with. I absolutely love it. Not to mention i'm lame and i can remember when all the Adult Stars in the show were starring in their first shows. LOL. Like the Mom was Liz on Roswell!! And the Step Dad so to speak was on Dawson's Creek. I really like the show, it's about a woman Cate and a guy Baze who are 32 yrs old and screwed around once in high school which led them to having a daughter that they gave up for adoption. When the daughter turned 17 she found out that they were her parents and showed up at their doors, no they're not together. And now it's about all of them adjusting to life as a Family with a Daughter, or actually having Parents. It's kind of funny and quirky and i like weird shows like this. And the title says it all 'Life Unexpected' and it's true....Life is by far Unexpected! You should watch it Mondays at 9pm on the CW!

Sleep is good!

Isabella has been getting better and better with her sleep habits. I know i should've instilled them in her when she was an infant, but lo and behold i didn't; but she's catching the drift!!! I laid her down last night at 8:30 (she got a really late nap) and she didn't get up till 1:30 am, i was uber ecstatic!!!! but by that point i was kind of tired so instead of sitting there nursing her back to sleep i just fell asleep with her in Sky's twin bed. Tonight however, i'm goin to try and get her down at 7pm like usual; and see if i can get her to sleep till 1:30am again, BUT stay sitting up to nurse her and lay her back in her bed. If that happens and she stays asleep till 7-8am then WOO HOO we're in the clear!!! I don't necessarily expect her to sleep through the night. All i want is longer stretches of time :)! It was a little bit weird sleeping on Sky's bed but it's only for right now. AND they're room is almost all cleared out, which is awesome, the crib isn't against the wall at the moment bc of the extra junk in that room, but by this time next week all the junk should be gone and their room will be perfect!! Then it'll just be a matter of getting Skylair used to sleeping there too.

In other news i go to the Cardiologist on Thursday and have a meeting with her and a couple other docs and a surgeon. This appointment will asses if i need the surgery, and the plans from there. Like when, and who exactly will be performing it ect. I hope everything pans out right. Hopefully it'll be an outpatient surgery and that it'll be early morning and i'll be back home by that evening. We can't really afford Donald to take any time off work so Skylair IS going to HAVE to SPEND THE NIGHT/WEEKEND at Mah-Mahs regardless. There's no way i'll be able to physically chase after him and Isabella directly afterwards. It will be hard enough with just Isabella at home.

However, if it does happen i'm Hoping s few good things will come from it.
1) Better Health
2) SSI approval
3) Skylair getting over his Separation Anxiety
That's all i'm looking for,because it's something; not only I need; but we need as a family.

As Time Goes By...

I've come to realize who my real friends are and what it is that i truly need and don't need in my life. And Drama is definitely one of the things that i don't need. I love that i have been able to cut out the negative people in my life over the past few years, and just keep the close drama-free friends in my circle. It's been somewhat awkward at certain instances but rather pleasant at others. I know that it sounds like i am just rambling on, but whatever.

I have also come to realize how to properly organize my time in life and to give attention where and when needed. But i have also come to learn throughout the more recent years of Mother Hood that in order to be a good Mother and Wife i have to be secure with myself, have time to myself; because a stressed out Mommy or Wife leads a stressed out household. This past year has been a very eye-opening year, initially with Donald and the loss of his job right during the impending time before Isabellas' birth. His unemployment lasted all the way until she was 5 mons old!! It was a hectic, trying time for us as a family but still we persevered.

I Love being a Mom, i think i never realized how much of a full-time job it is until i actually became one. Right now that is all i do and sometimes i truly do want a vacation. I think it's because when Skylair was Isabellas' age i was working and everything and even when he was an infant i was going to school and just doing so much more. I felt like i had a life outside of being a mother. Now since i've had Isabella i haven't done either. I've strictly been a Stay-at-home mom (SAHM) which is nice because i just have to take care of the house hold and not a million other things, but on the other side i liked working and going to school, it gave me time with other people outside of my family.

You know, it kind of feels odd that it is now 2010 and that my Little Boy will be 4 years old in just 4 months, and that my Little Girl is already 1 Year Old. I can't believe how fast the time has flown. Sometimes i can still remember the most random things from high school or growing up as if it was yesterday. It's kind of sad. haha.

I have come to learn that i do need a break as well. I don't get that too often and i totally miss the times i had to be able to go out and see friends without always having to bring the kid/s along. With Skylair since i went back to school and work when he was young he was used to going over to grandmas house on the weekends because of the time i got out of work or class was so late and that gave me the peace and quiet down time that i truly believe EVERY MOTHER NEEDS.  Now with Isabella it has been the exact opposite, and it has even turned Skylair into a once Super Independent little boy into quiet a Separation Anxiety King. And due to his separation anxiety Donald and i haven't had a single date night since JUNE!! At least with Isabella being home with us it was easier to ring her along to diner and just have her sleep, unlike Skylair where he's so smart and curious he doesn't even let us talk to EACH OTHER half the time.

I would LOVE, and i mean absolutely LOVE to have a date night/ 18 hr period just where it's Donald and Me time. Without the kids. Is that too much to ask? I truly believe that has been part of what's fueled my somewhat depression this year. I believe that if i get out and go back to school, and maybe get some time Alone with my Husband and with friends then it will go away. I had it slightly when Skylair was an itty bitty infant, but i feel like it's stronger and deeper this time around. I don't really feel that it ties into Post-Partum Depression per-se, but it could've definitely stemmed from that.

Does ANYBODY have ANY advice for me? i have gone through the parenting site and mommy connection sites for what feels like a bajillion times and to no avail i don't know what to do. And that's mainly stemming from my childrens' Separation Anxiety Issues. I know it'll be hard for Donald and i to get a date night anytime soon because of his new job, but quiet mommy time with the kids safely at grandmas would be GREAT!

Hooked up to Machinery.w00t.

So i went and saw the Cardiologist this morning, and it actually went by somewhat fast, although i was there for an 830am appt and didn't get home till 1130am. Well needless to say i'm still broken. I found out why i got lightheaded and dizzy when i doubled my medication in the summe, and i only doubled it for like a week; it drastically dropped my blood pressure, like dangerously low......go figure huh?! I still haven't gotten my damn MRI taken care of because of the damn Radiology department is full of morons. Gah. So right now i;'m stuck on a 24-HR Holter Monitor. YAY! ::sarcastically:: i get to turn it back in tomorrow morning, boy am i glad she didn't order an Even Monitor, 30-DAYS would have SUCKED BIG TIME! Well i turn that back in tomorrow and then i have to go back to her office at the end of the month in 3 wks and go over the test results from this monitor reading and then also it'll be with her and a couple other specialty Cardiologist to see if i'm going to need Catheterization. I know it sounds kinda weird, and or bad. But i'm not looking at it too poorly. I am trying to keep an open mind about it. I do like however that THIS Doctor is actually keeping on top of everything and checking everything out before shipping me off to the OR like Kaiser did back in Summer of '04! Part of me wants to have something proven from the exams and have me have to go in for the surgery, at least that way it would make sense of all these issues that i have been having lately and also it would help justify why i have been attempting to apply for SSI. Because the government doesn't seem to think that there is anything wrong with me. Don't get me wrong i would love to know that everything is fine and that i don't need to go 'under the knife' or anything but justification would also be a good thing as well. So yeah, i can't wait till the end of the month so i can finally find out what the hell is going on and how to fix it. On another note though, when i went into the Heart Center to get my Holter hooked up and everything i was talking to the supervisor/manager there and she was saying that she wishes she had another qualified employee and that if my health gets better and everything is set up for me to have childcare that i should go in there to talk to her one-on-one and avoid the HR Department, and bring in all my documentation and everything to talk about possible employment, but i should definitely figure out my health first and then if wanted or need to go and see if she can do anything to help, w00t! So good and bad-ish news today.