i have decided....

that since i am no longer a child i really dislike the month of December this year. Plain and Simple. Why you ask?

• Money....well lack there of
• Business mixed with Boredom
• Friends always busy, therefore i'm always home with the kids :(
  
• Religion EVERY where i turn.....bleh. (i Dont understand why we celebrate Christmas in December....wasn't Jesus born in the late spring/early summer time?, if this offends, i don't mean to. i'm just alil confused by it that's all)
• PEOPLE EVERYWHERE.....you can't go to a store, Any store, without having to fight through a million and one people. And usually people that are douche bags and don't care that they're rude and bumping into you ect...
  
  
  
  I'm thinking that maybe when the economy gets better and we aren't struggling with this and that as a family in general i will begin to like December again, as a child i used to LOVE December because There was always Winter Break, and i always got 2 Christmas' since the age of 8 (i believe?) and i Absolutely thought it was the greatest thing ever!! Yes i was a lil kid that didn't get sad about a parental divorce, i looked at it as an opportunity for double to parties and presents! LOL.
  

Eh....Blah....

i don't really like the chlub on my tummy. Maybe i should do something about it. Eh. Or maybe i should just learn to live with it. Bleh. I want to be Sexy again. But i feel gross. Damn Kids.

Arrrgh.....sucky

So this hella sucks i think. I totally was ready to go back to school this comming up term, i only have like 5 classes left to take to graduate (including PE) and since they closed down the infant center at the day care on campus and that head start wont accept anybody under 18 mons i was planning on taking a saturday class and an online class next month. well come to find out they had open enrollment for priority 1 students on the 30th of November. And i can't even register untill this comming up tuesday and guess what?! OF course the 2 classes that i wanna take are completely closed!! And they're not even classes associated together, a Photo class and History! BLAH!  So it looks like i'm not going back to school any time soon.....maybe this summer? i dunno. And to top it off the county still hasn't fixed our file and it has been 30 days, Gawd today has been a super sucky day. and i'm really irritated and pissed the hell off.

So.....I've been thinking....

And we're hoping that Donald get's his w-2's from his job in early January like he did last year so that we can file our taxes early. I know i sound like i'm crazy talking about Taxes before we even have Christmas Dinner but that's the convo that Donald and i had earlier today when we were driving home from Natomas. We want to have the Wedding by the end of this year, probably at the end of August or the beginning of September :D! Also depending on the amount we are able to get back for our Taxes i'm gonna try and upgrade the lense on the Camera!! It's gonna be fercan SWEET!!

Another Blog?!....

So this coming Spring semester, i'm going to go back to SCC and take some photography classes. And my friend Amy
suggested that i should make a Photo Blog. And you know what?! I Think i just will....maybe i'll wait till i start the class....i'm not too sure just yet. I guess just wait and see when i actually post it i suppose!

Today was a good day!

Today was awesome! Donald took Isabella out for a walk this afternoon when i left to take Skylair to school, i then when and hung out with one of the kids moms' that's in Skylair's class. It was nice to get out of the house for a while (90 min!!) without either child clinging to me....AND when i got home Donald had laid Isabella down for a nap in HER BED!!! It was awesome. Today was a good day :D!

Date Night......

Oh how i wish Donald and I have a Date Night....i think that it would really really help us unwind at the end of the week if we were even able to get like a 3-4 hr gap to just be with each other, minus the kids.....i have realized that a majority of my married friends have this but not us....it kinda makes me sad :(. Maybe that's a down fall about nursing Isabella this long. She is much more clingy than Skylair ever was, and part of me really despises it. I know it sounds horrible....but that's just how i feel at times...the stress is killing me. Blah, hopefully after i ween Isabella then maybe Donald and I can get our Date Nights back, unless i have any takers on a babysitter?

FCUSD...... ::TEAR::

So i was watching the news this evening and heard that FCUSD is gonna be closing Cordova Lane Elementary and Riverview b/c of a budget shortfall. This is ridiculous! The schools are already crowded and packed as it is, what are they gonna do with the near 700 kids that are without a school as of next fall!? The district said they can keep one school open if they raise $300,000.....i hope that it happens because this is not gonna help the kids one bit. What if they don't make the money, are they gonna put like 3 to a desk at Williamson or Peter J.?! I really hope that the district and the parents find another way around this Budget issue, cuz it'll be sad to see Lane go.....Most of my family (my moms side and immediate family) went there, and my nephews and niece go there now, it'll just be heartbreaking to see it go

i can't wait!!

it's been 4 years since the first Initial D came out, based on the manga!! and now the second is bout to be out, yay!!!

Trying......that's all i can do......

So lately i've been in this bad funk, kinda depressive, you know the drill if you're a SAHM or hell if you're a mom at all! lol. But it seems to be looking up, maybe with the prospect that Isabella is almost 1, i'm really hoping that once she hits 1 and i stop nursing her dependency issues will be a lil less nerve racking!!! So anyways, i cut my hair last week, and i really like it, i went to the store and got some hair products so that i can style it as well! Now i just have to have a reason to style it. LOL. i don't usually go out right now, but i think if i start to get dressed and do my hair and whatnot everyday it's gonna help me outta this funk :). Hopefully Sarah and i can get together sometime in the next week or so and Dye my hair, it'd be fun. My friend Nundhia said that i should dye my hair a couple shades darker than what it is right now and then do Teal streaks instead of Burgundy. I told Donald and he gave me that wierded out look that he's given me before!! lol. Any who, I've been talking to donald and since we have the 2 kids it'd be best if i just continue being a SAHM, at least untill Isabella goes to preschool also, bc it costs too much for daycare and it's not even worth it. Perhaps next term, if not then the summer term, I'll go back to City and take a class or two so that i can finish my Associates Degree and not feel like a bum. I did finish some school and whatnot when Skylair was a baby, but i never got a job, partially to when i graduated it was when the Economy started to go downhill, blah! Well, once i get my associates I'll try and see what's up with my Licsencure and everything, maybe i can try again for a Hospital job. That would be awesome!! If not, maybe I'll take some photography courses and everything and just work on that.

Happy Birthday To Me......

SO today i turned 24, Happy Birthday to me right?.....Not so much. Donald had to work today, so that really really sucked i think it's been a couple years since i was able to have an actual FUN Birthday. And it really sucked. The main thing that i wanted for my birthday this year was jsut a night or two of complete silence. You know what i mean?! But no. Skylair is going through this damn tripp where he doesn't want to stay the night anymore at Donald's moms house. Which really REALLY blows. He is sooo stressing me out and he refuses to stay over. So i dont get any type of break away from him. I am loosing my gawd damn mind! And another thing, I had finally gotten Isabella to sleep in her bed all by herself, not through the whole entire night, but from 8-230 and once from 10-430, and then that damn rainy storm came last week, and with this house being all super old the winds freaked her the hell out and she wouldn't go back to sleep in there again last week. It's super frustrating! I i know this sounds stupid, but i constantly put myself down, i think that i'm a stupid mother and everything, and then for some reason i always find myself finding things about myself that i can't stand! i think it's because i need a break and i'm just loosing my sanity right now. I haven't quite decided if i'll actually say what i keep talking myself down about. maybe another time, i don't know if i really want anybody to know what it is that i really think about myself. Donald tries and tries to be there for me, but i still find myself stressing out and going out of my mind and that always leads to me crying alone and putting myself down. i think that thoes are DEFFINITE signs that i need a vacation. But i don't have anybody to watch the kids. My mom wont watch them because she says that they cry to damn much, Donalds' mom can't really watch both of them for long periods of time because she's always stuck with Jadelynn, since Sophie wont move out and uses her mom as the live in babysitter. Maybe i just need to get out. Any Advice?.........

lalalala

So, hopefully all my sdi/ssi shit clears real soon, because they cut back donalds hrs, i guess the restraunt wasn't making as much money as they had hoped. which really blows, that brings donalds pay down to just enough to cover all the rent. nothing really left over....but his mom givs ys spare cash if she has it and we need it. i got a letter in the mail from sdi/edd the other day tellin me how much i qualify for a wk based ob prevous earnings....now i'm just waiting for the next letter/notice that concludes my shit with them, and hopefully it includes a check!! i wonder how much back payment they're allowed to grant....hmmmm.......oh our party went off akright it was a few less ppl than origionally planned, but Sarah had to work and Ashley messed up her ankle :(. Hopefully i'll be able to see them again soon! Also, on another note....MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 11 DAYS!!!!! w00t w00t!!!.lol

Help!

So does anybody know how to add layouts on this thing? Cause i try and to no avail it doesn't seem to like me cause it wont work.blah.

Woo Hoo!!!

So we finally got our internet up and it's so exciting!! lol. we've all been tinkering around with it since yesterday afternoon. We are planning to have a housewarming party on October 2nd at 6pm, we've never had one before so i'm looking forward to it cuz i'm such a lil nerrrrrd. We love our new house, and it works perfect for us, it's sop close to everything. we've really been saving big time on gas, hence we now have the internet. Um, i think thats all for now, just a quick update till the kids pass out and i have more time to myself!! lol

New Post.Woah!

So this blog is just gonna be about me and my rants and my other blog awongupdate.blogspot.com will be a fam update blog. I'M gonna try to update them both fairly often. they will be linked to my blogspot profile, okie thats it!